Hello all,
I am now getting used to summer, and life here at my mom's house in Spokane. I will not be going back up to Calvin Crest, like I did the past two summers. That is a sad thought, because that place is full of great people, experiences, and places. However, I felt called to be home this summer, for what I am not sure. I will be working here at a food bank, and riding my bike to and from work each day, hopefully. I will see my family more, but it is just so much different now that I have been away from home the past two years. My life has changed a lot, and I have changed. I felt called to stay here and be a witness to my family, for I want them to share in this life that I have found, but it is hard. For they have all already rejected Christianity, and everytime I bring it up (or don't, but am in the room) they decide they need to ridicule me for my faith. Not ask me questions, and let me talk of how Christ has changed me, no no. It is all about how science has trumped faith, and that public schools should not encourage Christianity. I know what you are thinking, I have never once advocated that public schools should force Christianity on students. This is just the family I live in, they argue a lot, and don't care what the cost is, they need to win. It is difficult for me, because I know that while I do desire them to become Christian, it will never happen. I am tired of being ridiculed so much, so I don't even bring it up anymore.
As I finish up my first week of summer, I find myself wishing I was still in school. Because now that summer has come, all of my friends have left me, and I am stuck here, with nothing to do. I have a job, and will make decent money, but my summer will by no means be great. I cannot wait for school to start again in September, because then I can have a life again, not just wake up, go to work, come home, watch a movie, and go to bed. That is all my life consists of now, and probabaly all summer.
Part of me wishes I would be going up to work at camp in a few weeks, to have fun, and community agian. I just feel so alone, and I know that is not a good thing. Friends, please pray for me, and my summer, that I could be joyful. If you have a spare minute, you can give me a call, I would enjoy talking to a friend.
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brian-
loneliness stinks big time and trying to find joy in the midst of it is difficult, but nothing is impossible w/ God. I am praying that this summer you will come to understand joy in a new way one that is different than just happiness. I am hopeful that God is going to do amazing things with you this summer. i am staying at school this summer and not looking forward to it, but trust that God knows what He is doing. you are loved!
I'm behind you, B-Rich (both psychologically and in prayer)!
Hang in there, man- you'll find yourself a routine and end up rocking this summer! And if it ends up being as boring as you suspect, it's not that long before MAC 209 becomes the party place!
Take it easy, bro. Hope things work out!
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