Monday, May 09, 2005

Contemplation, summer arriving, and finals.....

Hello all,
Today was my last day of regular classes, and I only had one class, Core 150. This week is going to go by pretty quickly, and it will be busy. I have to study for three finals, which I have started already, but I have 4 or 5 essay prompts for two of them, and so I need to make sure that I can memorize them correctly, and also need to make sure to finish the semester well.
As the semester ends, I cannot help but think back to last year, and what I was doing at this time. I was on commonfire, and it was close to ending. Last year was a year of growth for me, but growth as far as relationally with people, and just how to live on my own. While I was working 8 hour days, and it was busy, it was totally different from now. That work was physically tiring, but not very intellectually stimulating, and now I am on the other end. While I am keeping in physical shape with Ultimate frisbee, and lots of running around, it is not the same, and I am in a totally different environment. That was a close, small community of believers, and this is a large collection of people from all walks of life, while it may not be as big as many other schools, 2300 is much bigger than 18. I miss the woods, and the close friends that I had at camp. I miss riding my mountain bike and running trails by myself, and yeah, I even miss dishes. While in school, I am doing all that I can to take advantage of this opportunity to learn, however I am very happy that I took that last year off, it was awesome.
This summer, I will not be working at Calvin Crest. I withdrew my application the last week before staff selection. It was not the easiest thing to do, for I know that summer there is very fun, and it is just an awesome place to be. However, this summer I felt that I should live here at home, and spend some quality time with my family, since I have been gone for so long. I applied for a job working in a small food bank, and specifically in helping to give out the food to those who need it. While I have not yet gotten the job, I am pretty confident, for they called back, and just needed me to send back a background check (don't worry, common proceedure) and some forms for state work-study. If I get this job, I think it will really show me how I judge people based on material wealth, and (I hope) it will help me to get over that and see them as humans, just like me. This summer, I will be riding to and from work each day, a few miles each way, but right now, a car is just too expensive, and not really necessary. Besides, riding the bike will get me in shape, so probably next week I will go and find an inexpensive road bike somewhere, not nearly as much as my mountain bike, since I will need to lock it up each day.
This summer, my dear Christina will be working in the same kitchen that I spent so much time in last year. I am giving her what little tips I can, but she is a quick learner, and I have all confidence in her. This summer a lot of time will be spent on my cell phone with Christina, but I really think this will be a time of growth for our relationship (WHAT??) I mean it. When we left each other last September, we had only been dating for a few days, and while we talked everyday on the phone last fall, we had no foundation on which to build. Now we have spent some time almost everyday together since January. So, in departing, I am sad, but I know that God will use this time apart to build up some good things that might have been neglected while I was able to see her.
This is a long post, I am sorry, it is late and I just spent three hours studying for finals, so yeah. Laters.

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