excitment, relationships, school...

This post may seem a bit scattered, but that is sort of how I am thinking at the moment.
First, as the summer gets closer, t minus 6 weeks until I board a plane to go to Kenya for the summer, my excitement grows. I know that this is just what I need, something big and exciting to show me that life is indeed bigger than this routine that I am stuck in now. School is going fine, and I do have plenty of friends here in the dorms, but as the summer nears, I cannot help but be excited to fulfill a long standing dream of mine, namely to go to Africa, and do my best to be a compassionate, loving witness to the work Christ has done in my life, and offer others the blessing of knowing him.
As of this past month or so, I have been in a slump about girls-nothing new I know. Right now I have realized that I have two options, I can continue to sulk and be bitter because girls don't desire to date me as they do most of my friends, or I can say it is a two way street, and nothing against me as a person, so I will just enjoy my life, and learn to be content with where I am now. The second one is what I strive for daily, but often I find myself in the camp of the first one. This seems to be the one thing that has always plagued me. Thankfully, I do have a great group of guy friends here to support me, and pick me up when I am down, and when I cannot see anything but the pain, and the lonliness. Life truly is too sweet, and too short to worry about something that I cannot control. While I shall try to have hope, I see that I cannot make girls like me, that is a choice that they will make using their own free will. Next fall will be nice, living in a house, with other single guys, because one of the reasons I get so down about my lack of relationship at the moment is because in the dorm, and constantly being stuck on campus I am surrounded by people who are dating, and jealousy as well as my own fear of failure both grab hold of me, and won't let go.
I will make it through these next 6 weeks, and then I will be able to go and do something great in Africa, which will take my mind off of these things.