college life part 3....

I call this part three, because it is my third year of life in college. This is an interesting time in life, I am very loaded with class work (16 credits) and working 17.5 hours a week. I also am reading a lot.
I am not complaining, just saying that it takes a little getting used to. I think it will be a great semester. I am living in a house with four awesome guys, and really enjoying the time I have with them. I am also trying to learn how to play the guitar, which I know will take years to be proficient, but it is fun.
This is a wierd time in my life as well. I am happy with where I am, but I still wake up some days, and struggle w/ discontentment, and jealousy. I know that God calls us to be thankful for what we have, and I truly do have way more than I actually need, but still there seems to be 'more' needed. I guess it is part of the whole desire conflict, we naturally desire some things, but when we get them, then we lose the desire, and want something new.
I have spent the last 16 months single, which is fine, and I have learned and shall continue to learn good things about myself, and things that I need to work on before I can have a successful relationship. But I still struggle, especially seeing friends of mine who are my age or younger in great meaningful relationships. I am going to be in a good friends wedding in December, and it will be great, but I wonder if I will ever be married. It is easy for me to get down, especially when it comes to girls, my self-confidence in that area is pretty well non-existant. Most days I do my best to not let that effect me, and to make the most of each day God gives me, and be the best person I can non-dependant on if I am dating or not. However, a very natural question is why don't I have that? Why do some people get the things I have always wanted? I try my best to not be bitter, but it is hard.
On a brighter note, today was a pretty good day. I had only one class this morning, and then worked this afternoon, and went to a public forum lecture at school tonight about "Christian response to Global Climate Control". It was informative, and made me think about what I do, and how I need to make myself a conserver more than a consumer of this great planet that God has let me live on.