"For you did not recieve a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you recieved the Spirit of sonship." Romans 8:15 NIV
Today I read this verse, and it really struck me where I am. I have been living in a fear lately... not the fear that the media says we should have, but my own. I am not so much afraid of terrorists, or my neighbors, even though if you watch the news for a moment it basically tells you to lock your doors, everyone is bad and will kill you. No, I decided a long time ago that I would not allow myself to live in that kind of fear. Yes, there are horrible things that happen each day, but that is beyond my control, and living in fear of it will only make me paranoid.
No, my fear is one that I have struggled with for years now. One so rooted in my being that these past four years that I have been a Christian, I haven't brought it out, and let God show me otherwise. My deepest fear is that I am inadequate, and desitined to always be unhappy. That fear has something to do with the home I grew up in, my history with girls, my father leaving right when I was born, and my lack of social ediquette.
I have made my fair share of mistakes in the past, and I cannot hide from them, but Christ has paid for them, and is calling me to become a changed person. Slowly over these past four years, I believe I have changed a lot, but there is still much more to be learned.
However, this verse reminded me that now I am to be called a son...because of Christ. Not only that, but I am to be used here and now in some way to help establish the kingdom. That God will use my past failures, and experiences to reach out to those that someone else might not be able to. That my life has a purpose, and I need not fear what is/is not to come, for I am now a son, and will not be forsaken.
Praise the Lord our God! Keep this in mind friends, and don't be afraid any longer, let us rise up into this calling.
About Me
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- I have been married for just over a year, and still feel very blessed and lucky to have such a wonderful wife. Last spring I moved to the SW, and both my wife and I are RNs. I am follower of Christ, and daily learn how to best serve him and others before myself.
2 comments:
brian-
yes you are inadequate on your own, but in Christ you are made complete. I have seen Him use you to do some incredible things and be an encouragement even when you didn't know you were being one. i hope you can come to rest this. i have those fears as well. i don't want to belittle your situation, but know that as your sister i am struggling to. lets fight the good fight to believe these truths that God is proclaiming to us. take care friend...it'll be good to see you at staff concert...i feel like i've gotten to know you so much more this year through blogging...God is good! be blessed friend!
Brian,
The struggle with fear is one that touches so many of us. Are we afraid to grasp and hold on to the great gift of God's grace because by doing so we are completely abandoning ourselves to the King? And yet the solution to our free is just that... to recognize all that we are and give all that we are to Christ. Yes, fear is of the devil and I hate it. But to be heir to the King, now that's something to have hope in. I enjoy your blogs bro.
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